I think my issue is that I have no one who is on an intimacy level. It would be nice to have a girlfriend but the people I’ve been with are just mean towards me. I do not know if I’m really the problem. I would like to believe that I am a nice guy. I might be too nice towards the people I would want to be with. 

Everything that’s been happening to me seems to make me think about where I’m going. At this point, I know where I want to be and who I want to become. I wish there was someone who could support me and/or guide me through my journey. There is always family but I want someone who doesn’t have that attachment or relation.